Today is my mom's annual Christmas Craft Show. She works all year long making tons of crafts for all types of holidays and cookies and then sets up shop in her house two weekends before Thanksgiving and sells them. It is a tradition, and one that has been going on my entire life. And today, I believe, was the most success she has ever had, in my eyes.
I have been physically, mentally, and emotionally broken down in the past 9 days of my life. I have been exhausted and in pain that I never thought I would encounter. And today was the one of the most amazing days I've ever experienced.
God has revealed so much to me through this horrific experience in my life to me that it is overwhelming. And today was no exception.
I was fortunate enough to be able to share my struggles and my revelations with multiple people that I otherwise would never have spoken to in so much depth. God really has a way of revealing more and more in my life the more I am willing to be bold and share His love for me with others.
This post is mostly to say what I walked away with today. And what that is is that we have no control over the situations in our lives. We cannot choose the hand we are dealt, but we can choose how we handle it. God gives us free will, but He ultimately knows the direction we are going to head in. And this is so encouraging to me, because I know that I am walking side by side with Jesus.
And the more I have spoken to people today about what I went through and what I got out of it, the more I have learned about what else God was revealing to me, and through other people! Today I have experienced forgiveness, love, happiness, and excitement. God is living inside me, and I can feel Him. I can feel Him in my words, and I can feel Him in my breath, and I can feel Him in my healing.
I was reading today that a man suffering with HIV wrote this down in his journal to comfort himself: When I am sad, I think about Jesus, and I am no longer sad. When I am in pain, I think about the love of God in my life, and I am no longer in pain. And when I am tired, I think about Jesus and I am renewed. It was something along those lines. But that is quite an encouragement.
God controls every part of us, yet He gives us the option of choosing Him over the world. The world tries to label us and our struggles as good or bad, better or worse than one another. Like being fat is better than being gay, because you can lose weight, but you can't lose gay. And who is to say that either is good? We each deal with our own private, unique burdens and struggles. And we each respond and deal with them in our own way. But none are worse than the other. God puts everything on the same level for us, because every struggle is a struggle, no matter the size or the shape or the offense. And it is our job to respond in a way that has Jesus written all over it.
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