I'm going to Washington, D.C. this weekend. December 10-13, to be exact. The good news is that my flight only cost me $50 round trip for being a member of spirit air. The bad news is that the flight is out of Ft Lauderdale airport at 7:05...AM. Which means I'll have to leave my house at 4am. May as well not even bother going to sleep. Although I am not one to sleep on a plane, so I should probably try for some form of shut eye. Even if it is just a brief moment. Although when I sleep for just a few hours I tend to feel more drained than if I hadn't slept at all, so maybe I shouldn't sleep. I'll probably be too nervous to sleep because of the whole situation, anyway. Well that was a mouthful and I've gotten ahead of myself. Too much Gilmore Girls can really change your way of speaking.
There has been talk, and by talk I mean speculation on the part of one article in which a reporter or newcaster or whoever he is decided that he was going to make it his mission to scare me by reporting that there is a possible MAJOR snow storm heading right for Maryland/DC. December 12-14. Perfect. Now I am not one to turn down a snow storm. I don't have much right to say that considering I've never had the opportunity to turn one down, but I'm sure that upon encountering one I'd be completely thrilled and resort to acting like a 5 year old and going outside to build snowmen and build forts and have snowball fights. Not snow angels, though. I find those to be pretty lame, considering they don't really look all that much like angels and you get your clothes all wet and cold from the snow.
However, I do have great fear for this snow storm. And I only say that because I MUST be back in this county by Tuesday at 7:30am, or I will miss my student teaching orientation, which could mean I will not be permitted to student teach in the Spring, which then in turn means I won't be graduating in May and will have to student teach next Fall and graduate a YEAR from today. I'm not sure I can handle that. I've already waited 7 years to graduate. I've not stopped going to school for more than one semester. And I have worked REALLY hard to get where I am. So I will NOT be denied this opportunity without a fight if that does end up happening.
That was my ranting part of this post. Regardless of how positive we try to be, there is always a part of us that worries. That is our sin talking, and I know that, so I take it with a grain of salt. But what I've found to be encouraging about this situation is that not only has every other weather channel and link I've looked at said nothing about any snow at all while I'm there, but multiple people have encouraged me. John himself called me up while he was at work to assure me he didn't think there was more than a 1% chance that a snow storm bad enough to shut down the airports would occur while we are there. And he also wanted to encourage me to not be afraid. And Holly did the same, and reminded me of how hard I've worked in school and how many times my graduation has been post-poned that God will bring me to completion in this area of my life.
God is amazing. Without His presence in my life, I don't think that these two people speaking into my life in this way would have encouraged me. I know that this seems like a small matter in comparison to many of the things going on in your lives or in our world, but to me, this is huge. This is everything that I've been working for the last 10 years. But through all this, God has encouraged me yet again to believe in His power and to trust in His love and His provisions.
God is stronger than any snow storm that could ever come upon this earth. And God is in control of my life, in every single aspect of it. For me to worry about anything is sinful. Not that He expects me to be calm, cool, and collected at all moments, but it is true. If I trust and believe and proclaim that He is in control, than let me live it! Let me prove that I believe it! If I'm supposed to stay here, I will stay here. If I'm supposed to go, then I will go! If I'm supposed to miss my orientation and thus have to postpone graduating, so be it! God is in control, and this will all work out for His glory, so what do I have to fear? ABSOLUTELY nothing. God is my rock, my salvation, my constant. He has never disappointed me yet, and He never will.
BELIEVE without abandon, no matter what. That is my mantra.
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