Another incredible weekend has come to a close. I'll admit that I had one too many glasses of wine on Saturday night, but this weekend was powerful. God is calling me to an intimate and personal relationship with Him. And I know this because I can't seem to go or do anything without being reminded of His glory.
Last night was the ascent, which I love. A night of complete and total worship. If you know me at all, you know that my world revolves around music. I'm constantly seeking and searching for new music. It has to speak to me. It has to be dripping with passion and meaning. And it has to have a good beat. Which is why night of worship is such an incredible experience for me because it combines both the love of music I seek, and the love of my life. I am given the opportunity to fall before Him in complete and total surrender through music.
There was a point in the music last night that God helped me surrender my heart to Him completely. It is something that is quite challenging to do seeing as there are so many people around. I constantly seek to compare myself to others. I hate to admit this and I hate even more that I do it, but I do. We all do. I look around the room and see all the other men and women that I think have so much more than I do. They have wives or girlfriends, husbands or boyfriends. They've got incredible looks, a sense of style, perfect bodies, money, and great attitudes and personalities.
But these are all earthly goods. These aren't things that God looks at. God doesn't compare me to the male model I may be standing next to. God loves me and sees me as His child. Beautiful and spotless in His eyes. Something He would sacrifice His son for. And He would never compare me to anyone else, just like He wouldn't compare you to anyone else.
This struggle is my struggle. And I've had to deal with it just like everyone else has. But this lyric put all those fears and thoughts and comparisons in their place:
I called and You answered and You came to my rescue. I wanna be right where You are.
That is all the authority I need. That's love. That's truth. That's everything. I don't need anything else.
astounding.
ReplyDeleteand also, you could be a model too, just throwing that in there ... when I get some camera equipment we're going to make sure of this.
but that's all earthly, worldly goodness ya I know ...
the spirit God has given you is hotter than a tan, handsome, bulging bicep of an Ascent-attender.
amen.
Mary, you're quite possibly one of my favorite people in the world. God has put you on this earth to encourage and to speak out without fear and I love that about you so much!
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